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I thought i am strong,

I am supposed to be better than this,

I thought i have a very high confidence level,

I thought i would not be affected by that ‘uncertain’ thing, since it is in itself is ‘uncertain’,

but, clearly, i am a Normal human being,

and this is what keep repeating in my head:

What if that ‘uncertain’ thing become ‘certain’?

I can’t bear to think even for 2 seconds what is going to happen if it’s ‘certain’.

If you know me/close to me, I am really really bad at NOT thinking of what happens next.

Oh Allah, help me.

O’ friends, help me.

Why me?