I thought i am strong,
I am supposed to be better than this,
I thought i have a very high confidence level,
I thought i would not be affected by that ‘uncertain’ thing, since it is in itself is ‘uncertain’,
but, clearly, i am a Normal human being,
and this is what keep repeating in my head:
What if that ‘uncertain’ thing become ‘certain’?
I can’t bear to think even for 2 seconds what is going to happen if it’s ‘certain’.
If you know me/close to me, I am really really bad at NOT thinking of what happens next.
Oh Allah, help me.
O’ friends, help me.