Afraid of losing
If that thing becomes ‘certain’
I would definitely lose everything that i have worked for since the last 6 years
Will i lose my relationship of 8 years?
but The Most Important,
Will i lose myself of 25 years?
I’m begging to Allah for ‘No’ for the last question.
(i’m still thinking of what happen next. It’s a vicious cycle. STOP thinking please!! Get out of my head!)