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Eventuality. Nostalgic.

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16/3/2005 is the day i arrived in India, which effectively starting my journey to the MBBS degree.

14/3/2010 is the day the result of the final MBBS exam. Pass.

It’s been 1,825 days or 4 years, 11 months, and 27 days. Whichever way you put it, i mean, i am really relief that it is eventually ended in good term.

i still remember during my high school days, when i started thinking about becoming a doctor, around early form 4 or early 2001, i was sure it would be a great but also a very difficult journey. I can safely say i was right.

At many times during the journey i felt i had reached an impasse, right to the point during this final exam, sometimes i felt it is too much to bear, but now i am freakingly thrilled, obviously excited that i finally, i have finally broken the impossible. i have finally, finally got through it!

For a few people who have known me throught all the years tracked back to form 4, they knew that i’ve been through some rough roller coaster time.

I’ve been at the peak of moment, peak of joy, down right to the lowest valley imaginable, climbing way back up only to free fall back down to the valley, before i climbed back slowly to reach the end of the journey by reaching the peak.

But, i always knew, and i became more realized that when i reached this peak, there’s already a lot more in front of me, waiting to be climbed. waiting for me to reach there.

mark my word. i will be there. step by step. no matter how hard the roller coaster is. i will certainly enjoy my trip along the way!

But for many people, they might thought that it’s been an easy ride, that i am just cruising through it.

Life have too much of suprises, too much, it can set you back damn real hard, it can lift you up above the clouds, but in either pole, you gotta go back to the equator, back to the center line, to smoothen the ride.

2009 was the most traumatic year of my whole life, before that, it was 2004, but the gap between it is like the distance from the core of the sun to the core of planet pluto.

Despite all that, i believe i have hard-earned many valuable values of life during the black times. I have gained many coping skills, strengthen my soul, harden my grit, fortified my heart and sharpen my determination.

Alhamdulillah, and thank you Allah, for all that you have given me, the good, the bad and the ugly. i’ll never question god’s mysterious work for the life of me, whatever it may be, good or bad.

I really hope a dear friend of mine who didnt make it through the final exam, to be strong, determined, to see it through during the next upcoming exam in 6 months time. I know that you feel this is the worst possible thing that ever happen to you, it’s true, but there’s a lot more worst thing that could happen, which i dont need to mention it anyway. i believe my readers will know it too.

he said, that i couldnt feel the way he felt, because im not in his shoes, well i could only tell to him (i wont have to tell him actually) that i do know how it felt, because i have experienced it, but not in the same kind of challenge, but i believe the amount & the sharpness of the trauma is almost equal if not the same. i believe he is strong enough to go through this.

whenever something ugly came my way, i always felt it is the harshest thing that ever happen, until the last one, i really felt that i shouldnt feel that way, in fact, i should believe, there is something worse that could happpen, something that u can never have imagine. I can safely say, whenever anything happen, be calm, be patience, work it through, and pray hard to Allah to instill a greater self-defence in ourself and a better coping for the next challenge or the next ugly moments.

so, i think i finish with all the emo stuff, im really glad and happy to be where i am now. Alhamdulillah. Nostalgic moment. Alhamdulillah again.

now is the transition period, where the end of a chapter came, and the start of a new chapter will come real soon.

The next chapter of my life is gonna be wonderful, cheerful & happy. at least that’s what i hope! 🙂

Thanks for reading, if anyone is reading anyway. haha. back to the real world!


Written by abduljabbar

March 15, 2010 at 5:11 am

Posted in kehidupan seharian

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  1. congratulations jabbar!! i mean Dr jabbar!! ehehehe
    wish me luck. exam in about a month! huuu.. *terrified*


    March 15, 2010 at 8:05 am

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